Kirk C. Admonishes David to Repent, Dec. 18th, 2000
December 18, 2000
"The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying. But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfill the lusts thereof." (Roman 13:12-14)
The last time we saw each other you blamed me for the departure of Judy. I have waited in silence for your turning in hope of a joyful reconciling. I have ceased not to pray for you that you might put away your darkness and walk honestly. It has become apparent through interviews of those you will speak with that you are living in denial; this letter is an attempt to bring you to the light.
Denial is the refusal to admit the truth. I believe that your denial is the result of years of deceiving yourself. Deceiving yourself about your self-importance and position. You have built up about yourself a wall of self-deceit and manipulation denying the evidence of your life.
You are unwilling to be entreated by your brethren for your sins. You have been abusive and shift blame for the consequences you presently bear. Until you are willing to repent of these public sins there can be no real fellowship. There is a need for clearing and demonstrative repentance.
You continue to lie about your abuse of Judy and are unwilling to own how you created the fear that drove her away. You have lied about your financial state. When your brethren cross your will you have a temper tantrum outburst and kick them out of your house. You, David, have cut yourself off from fellowship. Your denial of the specific questions that Mark Miller raised is not true. Your abuse of Judy is no longer private; Judy’s departure from you has raised it to public visibility. The abusive domineering environment that you created has reaped its reward. You are alone. It is time to see that you are not being persecuted for your faith where family members have turned against you but rather you are reaping what you have sown. Your brethren have not turned from you to take counsel against you. We have not secretly laid a net for you rejoicing at your reproach (Psalm 31). It is time for you to seek reconciliation and amend your ways. It is time for you to own your sin and be reconciled to your brethren whom you have deceived. It is time for you to repent and know the beginning of deliverance and healing.
David we (Jeff & I) are repenting for not stopping your oppressive behavior long ago. We have been cowards before your bullying. We will no longer abide such. Stop being unentreatable, our call and the Lords call for you is, you need to repent.
I have used these strong words in this reconciling effort so that the need for you is clear. The question remains how will you receive these words? Will you receive this entreaty as a sincere effort of reconciliation or will you add this paper to your pile of self-justifying excuses?
Praying for you repentance,